recovering

school sucks even more. wayyy worse than before.

screw school . i cant wait till its over.
i hate those freaking new rules. X/

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thanks to this guy i'm gonna start updating my blog,
haha. MAYBE :)

terharu tak? terharu tak? hehehe ^^

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haha XD i didnt know ppl still uses blogger huh :P
i hav my tumblr but kinda lazy to update it too :)
guess why i suddenly wanna update my blog again,
ahah,cz there's this one guy,
he reads ppl's blog :P which i guess its a bit weird =='
cz i'm hell lazy to read ppl's blog :)
dont really like to read though :)
xcept for stuff like bio n chem ^^ haha, thats interesting :)
oh yeah. anyway, i dont know why, but then i felt like typing again ^^
stuff had been crazy lately! like real crazy! :)
good stuff n bad stuff ^^
1st, I HATE MELAKA
2nd, I HATE MCD
u know why dont you? =='
n now its killing me . huu~
hav to find money like, a lot!
its actually no big deal though,
its just that i only hav like 2 weeks left in school,
which is TOO SHORT to find that much of money,
but whatever it is, i have GREAT FRIENDS,
n they've promised to help,
n i have an AWESOME SISTER.
which does really help. A LOT
i love her do fucking damn much :)
oh, okay, so 1st, i have to find money
2nd, i havent booked any hotel 4 sgpore yet =='
sorry effy,
3rd, now we're so effin busy with school mag
4th, god! the dance for japan! urgh! =='
too tired to do that, but i have to .
5th, i have to go n get my passport ==' from the hiroshima club thinggy.
to go to spore, n when is that? hmm.
6th, oh yeah, n the namecard 4 evryone ==' gawsh

so yeah ppl, so long farewell. there's just too much stuff to do :)
oh btw, i can post private stuffs here cant i?
hehe ^^ but maybe later~ when i have the time.

credits to adi :)

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On your birthday I wish you much pleasure and joy;
I hope all of your wishes come true.
May each hour and minute be filled with delight,
And your birthday be perfect for you!




last post . wtf

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shvit! urgh. hardisk.
what the freaking hell is wrong with you? no way i'm gonna format you. hisyy.
wtf. feel like killing you , you know!
isyyy. cmon. laptop. haiyaaaaa!!!
i cant work like thiss!

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cheer's over,
now robotic n tp +_+
arghh! exam!

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wahh. cant stop crying when i watched that movie,
it was so sweett!!! n sadd!! n touching!!
i give it 5 stars. ahha, bling2.
smpai bengkak mate,
i dont even know which part that i didnt cry,
only some parts before her husband died.
gosh. her husband was so sweett!! really sweet.
n after her husband died. i cried at all parts all the way.
haha. funnayyy. beriyer pulak tuh.
lg beriyer dari patah hati. haha.

conclusion, go watch it youself,
I LOIKE!! HAHA :)

now, just even by looking at the pictures,
i feel like crying already, awww~~

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not mad ponn,
ngantok +________+
nk tido.

tralalaa~

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It feels like we've been out at sea, whoa
So back and forth that's how it seems, whoa
And when I wanna talk you say to me
That if it's meant to be it will be
Whoa oh no
So crazy is this thing we call love
And now that we've got it we just can't give up
I'm reaching out for you
Got me out here in the water
And I

I'm overboard
And I need your love to pull me up
I can't swim on my own
It's too much
Feels like I'm drowning without your love
So throw yourself out to me
My lifesaver
(Lifesaver, oh lifesaver)
My lifesaver
(Lifesaver, oh lifesaver)
Whoa


I never understood you when you'd say, whoa
Wanted me to meet you halfway, whoa
Felt like I was doing my part
You kept thinking you were coming up short
It's funny how things change cause now I see
Oh whoa
So crazy is this thing we call love
And now that we've got it we just can't give up
I'm reaching out for you
Got me out here in the water
And I

I'm overboard (overboard)
And I need your love to pull me up
I can't swim on my own
It's too much (it's too much)
Feels like I'm drowning (ohh)
Without your love
So throw yourself out to me
My lifesaver


Oh
It's supposed to be some give and take I know
But you're only taking and not giving anymore
So what do I do
Cause I still love you
(I still love you baby)
And you're the only one who can save me

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bought a new WATCH.
haha. me loike.

btw, now in tense.
dgr lagu justin bieber lg bgus,

ppl, go die.
haha.

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and this is you

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i mean, lately,
yeah, including myself, but i dont really know how to express stuff anymore,
like i used to.
somehow, it just doesnt feel right,
everything that i do,it just seem to....
i dont know.i dont feel like myself anymore,
okay, it been long since i kept this to myself.
i miss my friends. i miss them so fucking damn much!
i know2, all of u said we are still together and stuff like that.
i dont wanna bring this up,
but, we're not!! seriously,
i'm jealous of other people's friendship.
so freakingly jealous. i know u wont read this. so i cont care!
we used to be we, and now?
we're pretending to be we.i think so.
everytime i look at how we're not together anymore, my heart ache,
i feel like crying, but i think that too childish i guess,
or should i say i've cried enough.
how many time should i say? oh yes, I LOVE YOU PEOPLE.
but yet. i think it makes no difference.
i know we wont be like we used to be.
i'm so far from u guys. not in the same class nor dorm,
yes the same floor but we didnt even visit each other.
maybe some of them were my fault. but i dont know~
i dont know what did i do,
or what i should do. i just.... i dont know,,
hmm.ok. so now. the tv playing a song which really suits my mood right now.
darn! i feel like crying. but no. hold it. shishh.
people say life's complicated. i say life's bullshit.
truth are lies , lies are truth.
how would you know? basically, what effy said is true.
i'm LOST! so lost. u ask me to smile?
screw you. no way.
yeah, that's what i'll say to myself. but still.
i'll smile. u know that.
few days ago. my brother said,
"tgk cm wawa nie.tade mslh pon. mslh frenship pon tade. bagus eh wawa nih. dye....blah3,"
i just kept quiet, that night, i think to myself.
how come people think i dont hav a problem? n no friendship problems?
o yeah. cz people never know. i guess i dont show.
no wonder u , both of u,
dont even know that i've been missing you guys all this while.
that i've been missing we. what happen to once upon a time?
hmm2. okay2, just expressing myself tonight. since everyone is expressing themselves.
haishh.

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went to kb mall.
ate tom yam.
went to pantai tok bali if i'm not mistaken,
haha.
going to pasir puteh tomorrow.

bought cereal n milk just now.
for breakfast tomorrow.
haha.yummay!! :P

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So here we stand
In our secret place
With a sound of the crowd
So far away
And you take my hand
And it feels like home
We both understand
It's where we belong

So how do I say?
Do I say goodbye?
We both have our dreams
We both wanna fly
So let's take tonight
To carry us through
The lonely times


I'll always look back
As I walk away
This memory
Will last for eternity
And all of our tears
Will be lost in the rain
When I've found my way
Back to your arms again
But until that day
You know you are
The queen of my heart


Queen of my heart


So let's take tonight
And never let go
While dancing we'll kiss
Like there's no tomorrow
As the stars sparkle down
Like a diamond ring
I'll treasure this moment
Till we meet again


But no matter how far
(Matter how far)
Or where you may be
(Where you may be)
I just close my eyes
(I just close my eyes)
And you're in my dreams
And there you will be
Until we meet




Oh yeah
You're the
Queen of my heart
(Of my heart)
No matter
How many years it takes
(Queen of my heart)
I'll give it all to you
Oh yeah
(Queen of my heart)
Oh yes you are
The queen of my heart

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wohoo! xm's over :)

i like ~
ahaha. but there's nothing interesting to be talked about.
so i'm not gonna write long.
well. i'm going to kelantan with effy this friday,
cant wait! :) we're gonna hav fun kn effy?
anyhoo, i'm gonna get some of my results tomorrow
but i'm not planning to on9
so. gonna tell you my results when i'm back.
or when there's any empty computers around :)
haha.till then.
tata~

my life right now,
is just the way it is.
just cant describe it.
thats that.
fullstop

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i dont know what to do,
or what to say,
i only ask u not to cry,
n be by her side.

till then.

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thank god! :)

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will you please comeback?
i miss you,
i need you. seriously.
no lies.
pleasee~
comeback. without you.
i'm nothing~ :((

will always be waiting for you.

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today, i cried,
but i dont exactly know why,
it tiring anyway,
guess i'm tired of my life huh,
and sometimes. when you're down.
the person who you need the most is not even there.
and sometimes he or she dont even wanna be there for you.
or maybe he or she doesnt even have the effort to be there for you.
and thats when you'll think.
is he or she worth it.
i mean. we,i tried to be there for them but in the end...
it just hurts yourself twice.
i dont exactly know what to say, but i'm really tired of my life right now.
school's getting worse.
its just not that fun anymore.
well. i guess i just have to hold on.
well, i came here to learn. a lot of stuff.
about life. and business is my life.
its everything i am. the only reason i'm staying.
is cause its easier to make any survey for business here.
and its easy for you to know what people are looking for in market.
whats hot and whats not.
and i'll start thinking about what to do in future :)
my passion is business i guess.
but i'm learning science. people always ask me why.
but i guess, its just more interesting and....
i bont know. hard :) haha. i like.
but i still like acc n stuff. n i'll try to learn it a.s.a.p
haha, keyh.i'm bullshitting already.
tonight. i wanna see who will be there for me.
we'll see..the thing is.
i'm tired of chasing people.
esp when people dont really know how to appreciate.
so i guess its enough now. i'm tired of life.
oh. how i wish i could work.
today is the day. i'll try to stop.
yes, i'm tired. i'm scared.
scared of getting hurt.scared of being dissapointed.
scared of betrayal.

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