recovering

i dont know hows my life's going on right now.
i guess there's just too much stuff going on.
didnt get enough sleep for the last 3 days.
last weekend i slept at 5 am just to all these freakin designs.
n i didnt even touch my homework.AT ALL!
and then i have to like rush all of it last nyte.
n the last thing i said before i slept was, "whatever,screw you homeworks"
n i slept. anyhoo.today was the first time i slept during addmths class.
usually i was very thrilled n stuff to stdy addmts.
but i dont know. plus. i'm fasting today.
yeah,i know, it shouldnt be an excuse.
but i'm seriously exhausted. so sorry. hmm. kinda felt guilty, but..
its the past.right now. i'm having a headache.
aishh. :( we're supposed to propose all these design n stuff this wednesday.
but obviously, the designers are not ready yet.
so not ready. but. wtv. dont wanna think bout it nemore.

hmm. p/s : 'tw' thx for 040410. kept me happy for the whole day i guess.
or mayb till now. but,nway. i do felt better. a lot better :) thx. twtwtw <3
stdy hard yea? pls? seriously wanna see you succeed. tc!

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so you're trying to say that i've hurt you,
n i kept hurting you?
well, sorry,
i thought you knew me.
but i was wrong.
do you even know how hard it is to be me?
do you really believe how i look on the outside?
i thought u get me.
but guess, u dont yea?
well, there's nothing i can do if u choose to be so.
just do whatever you wanna do.

p/s : you hurt me more when you talk halfway.

if can, do wake me up.

btw, why should you be hurt? arent i'm the one who's going through the hard life?

dont you have everyone you need n evrything you need? or more?

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If I walk would you run?
If I stop would you come?
If I say you’re the one
would you believe me?

If I ask you to stay
would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say
so you don’t leave me.

The world is catching up to you
while your running away
to chase your dream
Its time for us to make a move
cause we are asking one another to change
and maybe im not ready

but im trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough

if I sing you a song
would you sing along?
or wait till im gone ,
oh how we push and pull
if I give you my heart
would you just play the part?
or tell me it’s the start of something beautiful

am I catching up to you
while your running away ,
to chase your dreams
its time for us to face the truth
cause we are coming to each other to change
and maybe im not ready

but im trying for your love
I can hide up above
I will try for your love
we’ve been hiding enough

I will try for your love
I can hide up above

If I walk would you run
If I stop would you come
If I say you’re the one
would you believe me?

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if u know u are hurting me.
n keep hurting me.
why cant you just stop hurting me.
be my friend.
n stop doing stuff i dont like.
yeah. u can talk to me.
but dont make me mad. dont do that!
i really dont like it.
n dont mind u did or what u wanna do.
taking titles or wtv. i dont mind.
but, u know..............
just dont talk halfway.
n dont come to my dorm(my bay) if u dont wanna talk to me.
or should i say. if u wanna talk to otha ppl,
or u're gonna talk to otha people. that annoys me.
truthfully.i just dont know what to say.
just do anything u wanna do.
n i dont mind if u still wanna be my friend or anything.
but just think before u do something.

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well, its been ............
idk. since i last updated my blog.
but, yeah, kinda lost the momentum to start writing blog again.
too busy right now.
n my life's not in a good condition.
haha.well,
i dont really care bout anyone right now.
cause.....why should i nway.
i have lots of other stuff to do.
but. there's something that really worries me right now.
only "she" knows.
please. i dont want stuff to repeat. it will be worse.
that was the last thing that i want to happen

hmm, next, i was thinking.....
lots of stuff.
u loved someone even if u dont want to.
n u know u shouldnt.
but u do. so how?

know what.
i'm still worried. because..
yeahh.
i feel like i'm losing people in my life.
i feel like people that i love are getting further from me.
or should i say. i'm scared that other people would take sumone away from me?
idk how to explain. but.
i really dont want that to happen.
i dont know what type of person am i.
but, i guess.
i love people too fast.
i love a person too much.
n i dont want to lose that person from my life.


hmm, but wtv, i have stuff to do,
n i'm dead! :(

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my legs hurt.
my mom's not coming.
exam's in 3 days.
freaking scared for everything.
robotic comp in one week.
i'm getting out of my mind.
not going back for long during holz :(
absolutely homesick.
sobs :((

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WARGHHHH!!!
EMO!EMO!EMO!
the robot is so like freakin stupid.
n eveyone's getting emo!
everyone's emo today!
shit! i'm so pissed off today!!
i dont know whyyyyyy??!!
felt like crying. but wth.
aarrrgghhhh!!!
never been this emo before!

mood : 101% EMO

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